I wish.

Tonight as I lay here in bed, surfing the almighty Internet, I realized there are things I wish for.

I wish that even if I had tons of money to decorate my house, that I would actually have the skill to decorate my house, so that it looked like you just walked into a pottery barn catalog.

I'm terrible at putting things together, let alone decorate a whole house. I guess if I really did have that much money, I should just hire an interior decorator though, right?

But really, I wish I had that ability to be able to throw things together and have it look awesome.

I also wish I had thicker hair, and be able to curl, and that I also could style it amazing.

Why must my hair be so fine, yet not that fine, but hold no curl, nor sit in any ponytail well??? Ugh.

Next up on the wish list is having my 19 year old body back. Two babies and lack of exercise. Well, it's holding up, but I think to my glory days and curse myself.
Why did I not wear skimpier clothes? Why wasn't I in a bikini everyday? Regret. I have it.

Well, they are silly things to wish for. But I guess I should be glad for wishing for silly things.

Time to dream of my pottery barn house, in my 19 year old bikini clad body, with my gorgeous hair, that I can style amazingly!

Super cuteness.

Put Callie in an outfit today, that literally makes me goes "oh my gosh"

It's a little big but I don't even care.

She has this little plushie that is also adorable, it's from a show called Doc Mcstuffins. We don't have cable, it's not on Netflix, but I caught a couple shows when we went back to Indiana.

Anyhow, she loves this plushie and likes to carry it around.

And I snapped a couple pictures of her and her little friend.

Random blogging.

Finding the time to blog should be easy. It should be so easy to sit in front of the computer, or on the couch, or in bed.

But it hasn't been.

My sweet baby girl is now toddling around everywhere and getting into everything.

My rambunctious toddler is adjusting to a new period in his life. He is learning and slowly speaking better, but he's still a little behind. He's realizing the his once infant sister is now toddling after him and being able to grab and take things from him.

Thanks to having a big brother to watch, Callie is doing things that took Wilson a little longer to figure out. And having two means double the mess.

The toy explosion that happens in the living room constantly sends me into a panic.
"What will people think?"

I have invested in bins from target, which have proven useful for doing a quick "Throw it all in there before people come over!!!"

I also ended up buying a toy box container from a local business that ordered Ikea stuff for you. (Closest ikea is 3 hours away.)

I'm in love. You mean I don't have to drive two toddlers 3 hours one way to go to a store to see things I can't fit into my car that I would like to buy?!

Seriously, best idea ever.

So enough rambling. Here are some pictures.

The gift that keeps on giving: germs

So far, I have been battling a wheezing cough that just hasn't gone away. It's been a couple days so far, I probably should up my vitamin c intake and eat a little healthier, but the chocolate and coffee calls to me.

So it's been almost 2 weeks back home, getting all settled into our house and routine.

The clothes piles are STILL horrendous. Like, I would probably curl up into a ball and die, if someone were to actually see our bedroom, where the clothes piles are currently, well, piled up.

Callie is walking around EVERYWHERE now! Ahh! I love it. She had started walking back in Indiana, but it took her a couple days to get re-adjusted, and is now back to walking everywhere.

We are trying to work on walking around with shoes on, but so far, it's confusing. She just stands there and will lift her one foot up and then put it down. Then lift the other up. Almost like a little sumo wrestler.

I'll have to record a video of it.

Wilson is back to being a picky eater again. He was doing fairly good at Grammy and Pop's. He really loved getting all that extra attention from his grandparents.

We are trying to sit down as a family and eat dinner together, when Andy's off work, but that doesn't seem to make Wilson want to eat any better.

*sigh*


Naptime is almost over. I need to go and pick up the living room for round number 2 of Baby Monsters Attack.

So I finish with a video of the kids dancing to Glee. Ahdorable!

Hello blog! Long time no see.

So much to type and not enough time to do it all!

We went on a 28 day vacation back to Indiana and stayed with Andy's parents.

We endured 2 over 14 hour car trips with 2 toddlers.

We got to meet up with family, friends, and get sick!


Callie took her first steps unassisted at Grammy and Pops.

Wilson got to spend lots of time with his favorites, Jake and Lacey, and unofficial aunt Kiki.


We had a great time and already miss that easiness of getting to live close to family.

Wilson got to play in snow for the first time.

Callie got to meet all her extended family, and give them the stink eye.

Little girl was not friendly at all! But she's at that stage right now.

So now we are back, getting back into our lonely family groove.

No grandmas and grandpas to visit.

We have our friends though and the weather is so much nicer here!

Hopefully I will find more time to update in the future.

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013!

The holidays are now over, and our family had a very nice one.

I am thankful for any holiday we get to spend together as a family, because well, when your are in a military family, we won't always get that.

It was a very rainy Christmas and New Years down here in Louisiana. And it has finally gotten chilly outside.

A few weeks ago I was wearing shorts, because it was so warm out!

I made a collage of some of my favorite pictures throughout the year and shared them on my Facebook and Instagram. But here they are again!

2013 is going to be an interesting year! We are gearing up for an over 13 hour car drive to go back home in Indiana for a month.

We are expecting to get new orders sometime in the spring, so I am excited and nervous. Nervous because what if I end up having to move someplace not on my "list" but excited that there is always a possibility that it could happen.

Andy will have to go for some training before we move and will be gone for I think up to 3 months. And that will be around the time I am knee deep in full toddlerhood. Eek.

Then we will get to say good bye to Louisiana in the late fall and move to our new base!

Oh did I mention I will be turning 30?!?!! Aaaaaccccccckkkkkk!

Okay I know I shouldn't freak out, especially since I am still told I look 18. (These flatterers are on my BS list.)

But I can't help it! I'm not upset I'm turning 30. I think more so, I'm just like, whoa, I'm actually getting old.

So there you go, 2013 here we come!!

You don't get these moments back.

When I was pregnant early on with Wilson, I worried about miscarriage, or any of the heartbreaking things that could happen while he was in utero.
Since Friday, I look longingly at my precious children, and wish I could have them safe in my uterus again.
Safe from a world, where there is so much pain.
I can't protect my children from everything. As they get older, more independent, make their way out into the world, I won't be able to shield them.

The scariest thing of being a parent is knowing a literal piece of your heart is that little baby girl with those long eyelashes, and that little boy with that mischievous grin.

A part of me is them, and I don't know how I could endure if I were to lose them.

These past couple nights, I've snuggled them closer, kissed their cheeks far more than they've liked, spoiled them with treats, studied their little features, their hands, fingers, toes.

There is so much pain in this world, and in two rooms under our roof, there is infinite, wonderous beauty.

I crept into their rooms again tonight, to look at that beauty. To try to capture it.

That sweet sigh, soft breathing, hearing a gentle heart beat in one room from a noise machine, and the sound of ocean waves in another.

I know i can't fully capture it. It's beyond words, pictures, it's beyond anything I could describe.