
Andy and I are over the moon about adding a little girl to our family. I don't want to sound ungrateful, because every baby is a joy, but I was really worried I would have only boys!
The back story is Andy is the middle of 3 boys, who's father is the middle of 3 boys, who's father is the middle of 3 boys!
So as you can see I was worried about what I had married into!
Now that I know I'm having a girl I can breathe a sigh of relief that I get to be a mom to a sweet little girl!
It's not about the ruffles or pink for me though, it's about getting to have a mother/daughter relationship I never had.
My mom is Korean, and I am American, growing up I wished my mom understood things better. I wished that I had an American mom that understood english, or at least could READ it!
She's my mom and I love her for who she is. I'm proud to be half-Korean and would love to know more about that part of me! But at the end of the day she is who she is, Korean and just her in general, and I am me.
My parents divorced right about when I was 14 years old, so pretty much the critical time where you both love and hate your mother, but you need her during those teen years and I didn't have her. I didn't really have much of either parent at that time.
I'm so excited to be able to be there for my daughter, even if she screams and cries at me, and slams the door in my face, tells me I'm the worst mom ever, for not letting her put on make up, or letting her stay out late, or letting her wear what all the other girls are wearing.
Oh, it will be hard, but it will be an experience I will treasure. I don't know any mother/daughter relationship that is perfect. I'm not expecting mine to be either, for all I know baby girl will be a complete tomboy, who HATES hello kitty. (cry!) She could have a personality that just completely clashes with mine! We might fight like cats and dogs and I'll have to remind myself "I wanted a girl!"
But she completes me. She completes the family I wanted to have, and the life I wanted to have. Even if that life involves lack of sleep from having two under two, constant fighting between the two, Andy and I just being completely exhausted all the time, wondering how we will get the money for -whatever is the coolest most expensive toy at the moment-.
But that life will also involve a little boy holding his daddy's hand, and a little girl holding her mommy's hand. Cuddling with two kids on a couch, half asleep watching a movie that has probably been watched a hundred times already. I'm ready for a lifetime of all those moments and I'm just so happy I get to have them.