6 more days.

So I have about 6 more days until I finally get to go to the doctors and get my first official prenatal checkup. From what I can remember I will be giving blood and urine samples for testing. Getting an oh so fun pelvic examination. And then if I am lucky the doctor will actually tell me I'm pregnant!
But really it has been a bit of a frustration for me. Yes I took pregnancy tests. 5 to be exact. Yes I got to hear the heart beat. Thanks to my own initiative. It's just it doesn't feel real to me yet! I see women on the Babycenter forum where I read posting their ultrasound pictures from anywhere from 6 weeks to 10 weeks. They got to have ultrasounds already and know that their child is growing safely inside them.
I unfortunately don't have that comfort. I keep having daydreams (more like nightmares) about going into the doctors office finally at 12 weeks and them doing an ultrasound and telling me that if there was a baby, it's not there any more. I know I'm just freaking out, but I just can't help it!
Mostly I am probably the most impaitent person, and this has been probably one of the longest wait I've had to go through.

On another note Halloween is this weekend! Andy will be getting to dress up for what I think is his first time! I'm a bit sad that he never got to experience the fun of dressing in a costume and going trick or treating and eating lots of candy. I hope that when our children are older he can kind of live through their joy and get to experience it. Still we are hoping for nice weather and not too cold. Of course this is indiana so we have no idea what we are going to get!

Our First Video of Baby Kirk

At exactly 10 weeks into my pregnancy, Andy and I got to hear the most wonderful sound. The sound of our baby's heart beating. I was originally upset that I wouldn't get to hear or find out anything until my first appointment which isn't until November 3rd. But I took matters into my own hands, researched around and found out that you can rent or buy your own fetal heart doppler.
I decided to rent one and rented it at 8 weeks. You can rent it for 4 weeks so I decided if I couldn't find the heartbeat myself at least I tried and I could go into the doctors.
At 8 weeks I didn't find anything. I wasn't really sure where to even look! The directions say right under your belly button but that made no sense to me. But I fiddled around didn't find anything and put it up for next week.
At 9 weeks I again didn't find anything. I wasn't worried just more disappointed as I really wanted to see if I was imagining being pregnant or if this was really real. (you would think 5 pregnancy test would make it real for me but haha it didnt!)
Finally last friday on exactly 10 weeks, I tried again. As you can see by all the lotion I tried every where! Started off high moved around and was starting to give up again when I moved lower I thought I could hear something. It was faint but I moved it around some more and then bam there it was fluttering away in my ear!
I yelled for andy to grab the flip and told him "I think I found it!!!"
And there baby kirk was. Andy was recording, I was super thrilled. And then I ruined it by moving the doppler just ever so slightly. Or baby kirk got scared and swam away. Who knows but for a brief moment we could hear him/her, and know that he/she was really there. That I wasn't crazy!
Amazing!!

Oh baby!

Wow I haven't updated in a while! So if you are a follower of me on facebook you might have already heard the news that Andy and I are expecting our first child May 14th. We are beyond happy and excited and just a little nervous.
As of today I am 9weeks 6days. So my last post was about the reception party which was on August 29th. Well if my calendar is correct baby kirk was already growing inside but I had no idea! A little tmi but I am a very regular person when it comes to that time of the month. I immediately knew when I had missed my period and took a test that morning.
I was in shock! I mean at first I thought maybe I was just late and over reacting. But as I watched that first line show up and how dark it was! I was just excited! It was around 9:30 am and I immediately took the test and jumped into bed and woke Andy up. He was all groggy and did not know what was going on. I then waved the stick in his face and he then had a huge smile on his face!
I originally was going to try to wait until after 12 weeks to make it public knowledge but Andy and I both just couldn't keep it in. Shoot we didn't even make it past 7 weeks!
Still it's wonderful and exciting. I'll have more posts about baby stuff as we progress. As of right now I'm just kind of sitting around and waiting. My first appointment isn't until November 3rd which is almost 3 weeks away ugh! I'm so impaitent!