New year, New beginnings

Wow. I can't believe today is the last day of 2010. What a crazy amazing year 2010 has been.

I get to celebrate the New Year tomorrow by going and celebrating two wonderful friends getting married! At least I plan on going but I have no idea what to wear. If I should take Wilson. Feeling a little weird if I went just by myself. Missing Andy definitely.

2011 is going to bring some very scary changes for us as a family. Moving to wherever the Air Force takes us and learning on how to live with out the help of our wonderful extended family. I know what it's like growing up in the military but now to live it on the other end where as a child, I had no worries or fears, is going to be a very trying thing for me. I will have to learn to be more independent. Learn to try to get involved and really find a home away from home family and still try to keep in as much contact with the family I already have!

I hope this blog will help with that for them as it has proven a wonderful place for me to be able to look back and marvel at how much has changed in the past 2 years. Growing up, becoming a wife, and a mother and learning how to basically become a parent. It's not easy but it's something I am so happy that I get to do.

Mistakes are going to be made, no one is perfect. I hope I can learn from my mistakes, and really be able to grow as a person. I want to be a better friend, daughter, wife, mother, sister. I hope this year will really be able to show me the way.

I can't wait to see what's in store!

Phew!

Well our Christmas has come and gone and Wilson is still slightly feeling the effects from the busy holiday! My goodness!

He did extremely well considering he took almost practically NO naps on Christmas and is getting his top teeth in. He was able to nap a bit on the way to my dad's which is an hour drive but he typically will take a good 2 hour nap so he was still a bit off.

Made it a bit easier for him to go to sleep both nights though.

Today I put him down and about 1:15 pm and he slept until 4:45 pm when I rudely woke him up. We went over to hang out a little with Andy's cousin Allie and Kristie and her girls and some of the Aunts.

Tomorrow he has to get his second Flu shot and I'm hoping we will maybe take his measurements just so I can see if he's grown much in the past month.

Let's hope his shot won't make him too terribly cranky tomorrow. Normally when he has gotten his shots he sleeps really good but he's only get one instead of the vaccination cocktail he has gotten.

I can't believe I can actually see his top teeth coming in! I love his little bottom teeth grin. Having top teeth will make him look more grown up than I am ready for! AHHHH!!!

Hmm..

So I wanted to update my blog to something a bit more festive and ended up with this boring Winter layout. I think I'm going to have to do some searching and try to find something a bit more fun.

Plus I'm really cold right now so seeing how my layout looks cold, makes me feel colder! BRRRR guess I'll go put on some socks or something.

Could I be your new BFF?

I'm not even sure what that means! But Emily started a list and I want to do one too!

So I guess this list I would post random things about me. Some of the things may not come as a shocker to anyone like: I LOOOOVE HELLO KITTY

But maybe you'd be surprised to know that I once ate a whole bag of flaming hot cheetos in one sitting and my fingers were orange for DAYS!

This was back in my teen years when my metabolism was sooo high and I could just eat anything I wanted. If I ate a whole bag of flaming hot cheetos now I would probably gain 5 pounds just from looking at it.

I now try to only eat HALF the bag of cheetos in one sitting.

I hate driving. Really I do. There have been times where I'll just sit at home because I just DONT want to drive.

I want to visit Japan and have a really nice vacation there. Not just a couple days but really get to see Japan.

I really hope I someday have a girl and am seriously debating on having as many kids as possible to make that happen.

I have a hard time looking people I don't know well in the eyes. I don't know why but it makes me nervous!

I've fallen off the horse and have bitten 2 of my fingernails after quitting for over 2 years.

I'm instantly jealous of anyone with long slender beautiful hands.

I'm instantly jealous whenever someone gets something that I want.

I really want to learn how to use my new camera so I can learn to take really nice pictures.

BRRR!

It has gotten ridiculously cold out now! Last Winter I don't remember it being this cold but I was also pregnant and had my little bun in the oven keeping me extra toasty. I kind of miss feeling nice and comfortable instead of cold all the time!

It's been almost a week since Andy left. SIGH. I really don't know how single parents do it?! It has been lonely on somedays and boring on the other days.

Granted if I really were a single mom I probably would not be at home, I'd be working full time and putting my poor baby in day care all day. Which you gotta do what you gotta do, but for me personally, I want to be around my child and someday children. At least at this age when they are babies and young. I think once the youngest of my maybe 3? children starts school I will go back out into the world and find a low key job or think about if I want to really start a career.

Honestly though, I don't really want a career. I don't want to work 40 hours a week and only see my kids for dinner and bedtime. I don't want to wonder what they are doing all day when I'm not there.

I think I will probably just do something part time where I could work a little and not feel like I haven't done anything but work all day. Now what type of job that is? I'm not sure about.

I'm so lucky to have Andy who wants this for us and our family and is making a sacrifice like this. I know it's hard on me, but I know it's just as hard on him. Especially tearing himself away from his xbox. JEEZ!

1 week down 7 more to go. SIGH.

Our Challenge.

So most of you who are friends and family know that Andy has now left for basic training with the Air Force. He left Monday at 5pm and I last had contact with him last night when he called to tell me his address.

It's been over 2 days since Wilson and I got to actually see and hug our Andy. It's hard but I have a great support system. I know it's not going to be forever and that this in the long run is going to hopefully be a wonderful thing for our family.

I think I'm mostly just sad that Andy is going to be missing 2 months of Wilson's life if not more. We've already seen how fast our baby is growing and I just know he's going to grow so much more!

I'm so lucky to live in an age like now where I can easily document and record everything though. Even though Andy won't get to be here at some point he will be able to look at pictures and see videos of Wilson literally growing before his eyes.


I guess I'm still not quite freaked out because I grew up in an Army home and I got to see what it's like to miss someone for long amounts of time.

A lot of people, myself even included now, have said "Oh I could never be away from my family for so long." or something to that effect and I DO get it. I lived it!

I grew up away from a lot of my extended family and am not very close with them. Which is okay. I cherish the times I got to spend with any of my family and now very much cherish the memories I have of my now deceased Grandparents.

It's going to be a challenge in so many ways for us. As a husband and wife, as parents, as son and daughter, and all other sorts of ways.

I know I'm strong enough to handle all this. But it is a very bittersweet feeling for sure. I have loved getting to have Wilson around his family. In our very near future we won't be able to see our loved ones as much as we like, but if I've learned anything about life it is to treasure the moments you create and share with the ones you love.

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